sometimes i really wish i was not into kpop in the first place. i wish that i didnt watch star golden bell on march last year. so that i wont see geng in the show. geng in spectacles with his fail korean. i wish that i didnt search more about him. i wish that i didnt watch music bank. i wish that i didnt spend days, weeks finished watching full house, ehb, and others and fell into sj. i wish i didnt do all these.. i really wish i was not in the fandom :( this really sadden me. i dont really think i can support sj and geng at the same time i dont even know why. not because of sj just because of elf and gengfans. only13 or only12. fuck prom15e to 13elieve 1ove the other 10 prot3ct the missing 3 fuck you who created these slogans. why are gengfans and petals can't get along. why must elf bothering geng. why gengfans have to be overprotective of geng and some of them even blame sj. i dont even know. i like geng i like sj i like henry and zhoumi. i dont want to choose. but when i support all i'll be hearing stuffs that i hate. fans bashing other people's idols. why. worst is that only13 fans hating on ... geng ? he was the original 13 for god's sake.
but to think... if geng had not left none of these things will happen. but if he stays.. he will suffer. and i dont know if i should believe anything that i read.. things that come out from 'sj' or from 'geng'.. misleading translations.. or i dont know.. someone asked them to say something just to create dramas.. hmmm done crying, ranting. i will watch luna and onew then sleep. if i can.